erica..............just remember,your beautiful......in every way

I am a 20 year old gay man. I wished I was a girl at a very early age and I started transitioning to a lady almost 2 years ago. I have been taking progesterone and estrogen for the same time period. I have noticed a loss of body hair, a change of voice, more belly fat, loss of muscle tissue and significant breast development. I'm now at a crossroad because I don't want diseases caused by the estrogen I am taking regularly, but I want to be an attractive young lady. I guess it's a case of I am damned if I do and damned if I don't. I don't think I will ever be as beautiful as a lot of these transsexual ladies, but maybe my confusion about my sex will be over and done.. I'm ready to become Erica rather than Eric. Eric Seager